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Back is Best

Well, I am a few days late in mentioning this but figure it’s still most definitely worth mentioning. October 15th was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. A day created to remember those babies lost from miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, stillbirth, SIDS and any other loss of an infant. A day to help create awareness and spread education. (www.october15th.com) This topic has a special place in my heart because of my own miscarriage and also for all the women I know who have lost a baby. Going through that miscarriage has definitely been one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced. I wish for no other woman to ever have to go through it. I know I am so blessed now to have Ronin but I still often think of that little one and what could have been; a little tiny angel now.

In the process of writing this post I’ve also come to learn that October is SIDS awareness month. Which I guess brings me to this: Oh my god! Ronin is now about 2 1/2 months old and the thought of SIDS has been driving me a bit batty lately. I mean, I try not to think about it too much, but it seems impossible! Every time I do a google search for anything baby related, ultimately something comes up about SIDS. It’s just such a difficult topic and since there is not too much solid information about the actual cause, it seems everything could be a cause. As a first time mom this is all a bit overwhelming, not to mention terrifying. I honestly try not to think about it too much but if it gets in my head the next thing I know I’m sitting there listening to him breathe while he is sleeping. We do our best, and I know that is really all we can do… He only sleeps on his back, hence Back is Best, he is strictly a boob man, we leave the ceiling fan on (well, now that’s it’s cooling off I don’t know that we’ll be able to. brrr.), and our pediatrician even said that the once forbidden in our eyes pacifier may also help lower his chances, so pacifier it is. I have not bought one of those movement monitors but as my brain tries to wrap itself into knots over SIDS I can certainly see their beauty. Well, I could go on with my fears and general craziness about this but I probably shouldn’t. It wouldn’t be long before I left this post once again unfinished to go in and listen to my peacefully sleeping baby. I know that while SIDS does affect a lot of families every year the actual odds of it happening to your child is fairly low. Then again, I also know that SIDS has effected more families than is fair, more families than I would like to know of. If your family or a family you know has lost a little one to SIDS my heart truly aches for you.

One last note about Back is Best which is neither here nor there… Before I got pregnant with Ronin I was a strict side and belly, well, sort of a combination of the two. You know where you’re not really on your side fully but your also not a true stomach sleeper, you know the type, ya? Well, I was one of those. Then as my belly grew I had to train myself to be a side sleeper, and not just a side sleeper but a left side sleeper. Did I forget to mention that I was a right side/tummy whatever kind of sleeper? Ok, check and check. Add the pillows between my knees as my hips started hurting and then add another pillow to shove under the increasing heavy tummy, and then occasionally I would need a pillow kind of shoved under my back so I didn’t roll onto my back as I was heavily sinking into the bed. Oy. So, I am sure you are wondering where in the world I am going with all this sleep nonsense and also probably why you are still reading about all this crazy sleep nonsense well here it is: I am now a back sleeper. I don’t know how or why but every time I wake up, which I do quite a bit, you know feeding a baby several times in the night and being crazy and listening to a sleeping baby breathe, I’m on my back. So, I guess back really is best.


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